Saturday, September 12, 2009

Who was I?

Funny you take quizes may it be facebook or google search results for QUIZES online FREE quizes, when you A: Bored B: cant sleep C: passed along by freind, So i took a quiz yes I did, and well look at what it says WHO WER YOU IN YOUR PAST ? who AM I NOW lol funny we can hardly seem to get an answer for that question yest WE ALL can get an answer for the PAST life of ours lol, soon we will take a quiz that says WHO WILL YOU BE NEXT! gosh imagine that, you will be a gangster a rapist? a hor? a goldigger, you will sleep with 350 men and die of aids lol okay not so funny, but isnt it soemthing how we tend to NEED to know everything? Gosh why cant we just live? JUST SIMPLY LIVE? why do we ALWAYS need answers ? Answers to Breakups? answers to actions Answers to determine why were the way we are, Is it 2009 and thats how it is? EVERYTHING is answered? and made THAT much more complicated? do we look for answers to make our lives better or to relieve ourselfs? like ANSWER: " you are the way you are because you dont have a father " "Ohhhh okaaaaay so then its okay to be a messed up and abusive towards men or others or to be premiscous? cus THEY said it.. I got the Answer!!! lol, well im just going on and on over sillyness but here is MY ANSWER to WHO WERE YOU ,

Who i was in my past life????

Poet You were quite the introverted one, misunderstood and alone in your thoughts. You would stay up to three o clock in the morning with your pen, sharing your dreams and losses with your beloved journal. Your poems were inspiring mostly to your love interests. Your words were your weapon...weapon of love, that is.
A song that makes me close my eyes and dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 at 11:42pm Edit Note Delete
you listen to songs, and they go away after a few moments, but some stay, some make you skip some make you wrap your own arms around youreslf and hug yourself... some make ou close your eyes and dream.... just dream..... where theres nothing but you and that dream, anything you make it be, its yours, your moment... your love your happyness, and maybe even our tear.....I close my eyes and smile and see a future a past and a present.... all the happyness is there all the love....all the skys are painted with colours i love the rain is falling into my hands and its warmth makes me dance.... the mountians are filled with snow thats so soft that you can blow on it and it starts to fly through out the air...... theres warmth and cold theres laughter and tears.... but it all fits..... im walking im running im skipping im floating..... in my dream is this voice... thats seems so pure...and gentle ..... this song is my dream in its reality.... all the darkness that ive feared is lifted ....the clouds are sperated ... the fears are my strength.... and im just beautiful, no flaws no anger no hate.... no wrongs.... and as im passing throughout this dream... a man stands in the distance and i curiously go towards him... this voice calls for me.... so calm and peacful..... he runs towards me, through the fields of red yellow geen and brown and purple and blues.... we make it closer and our hearts mealt ....right in that moment.....he takes me in his arms and swings me through the suns rays....... and we stop and smile at eachother...... we fall to the ground and lay there with not a thought only this dream.... this is the song that makes me Close my eyes and Dream..... Love Chella

Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Maddham Maddham Teri Gili Hansi Beloved, Your Laughter Is Fluid And Soft
Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Sunke Hamne Saari Pi Li Hansi When I Heard It, My Love, I Drank Up All The Laughter
Hansti Rahe Tuu Hansti Rahe Hayaa Ki Laali Khilti Rahe Keep Laughing, Keep Laughing! May Your Blushes Of Modesty Continue To Bloom
Zulf Ke Niche Gardan Pe Subah O Shaam Milti Rahe May Dusk And Dawn Continue To Meet Where Your Hair Slides Across Your Nape
Hansti Rahe Tuu Hansti Rahe Hayaa Ki Laali Khilti Rahe Keep Laughing, Keep Laughing! May Your Blushes Of Modesty Continue To Bloom
Zulf Ke Niche Gardan Pe Subah O Shaam Milke Rahe May Dusk And Dawn Continue To Meet Where Your Hair Slides Across Your Nape
Saundhi Si Hansi Teri Khilti Rahe Milti Rahe May Your Perfumed Laughter Continue To Bloom
Pili Dhuup Pahanke Tum Dekho Baag Mein Mat Jaana When You Dress In Yellow Sunshine, Look, Don't Go Into The Garden!
Bhanvare Tum Ko Sab Chherenge Phuulon Mein Mat Jaana All The Bees Will Harass You; Don't Go Out Amidst The Flowers!
Maddham Maddham Hans De Phir Se Laugh Again For Me, Softly;
Sona Sona Phir Se Hans De Give Me Another Beautiful Laugh
Taaza Gire Patte Ki Tarah Sabze Laan Par Lete Huye Lying On The Lawn Like Freshly Fallen Leaves,
Saat Rang Hain Bahaaron Ke Ek Adaa Mein Lapete Huye You Are Seven Shades Of Spring, All Rolled Up In One Fashion:
Saawan Baadal Saare Tum Se The Rain, The Clouds, It's All From You
Mausam Mausam Hanste Rahana Keep Laughing, Season To Season;Maddham Maddham Hanste Rahana Leep Laughing Softly
Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Maddham Maddham Teri Gili Hansi Beloved, Your Laughter Is Fluid And Soft
Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Sunke Hamne Saari Pi Li Hansi Hearing It, My Love, I Drank Up All Your Laughter
Kabhi Nile Aasmaan Pe Chalo Ghuumne Chalen Ham Come Wander Sometime With Me Through The Blue Sky
Koi Abr Mil Gaya To Zamin Pe Baras Len Ham If We Meet A Cloud, We'll Be Rained Back To Earth
Teri Baali Hil Gayi Hai Your Earring Sways:
Kabhi Shab Chamak Uthi Hai Somewhere Night Falls, Glittering;Kabhi Shaam
Khil Gayi Hai Somewhere The Evening Blooms
Tere Baalon Ki Panaah Mein Ho Yeh Siyaah Raat Guzare I'll Pass This Black Night In The Refuge Of Your Hair
Teri Kaali Kaali Aankhen Koi Ujali Baat Utare Some Brilliant Thought Passes Through Your Black, Black Eyes
Teri Ek Hansi Ke Badale Meri Yeh Zamin Le Le In Exchange For One Laugh Of Yours, Take This Earth Of Mine;
Mera Aasmaan Le Le Take My Sky
Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Maddham Maddham Teri Gili Hansi Beloved, Your Laughter Is Fluid And Soft
Saathiyaa Saathiyaa Sunke Hamne Saari Pi Li Hansi Hearing It, My Love, I Drank Up All Your Laughter
Barf Giri Ho Vaadi Mein Un Mein Lipti Simti Hu'i If Snow Fell In The Valley, Wrapping And Enclosing Everything,
Barf Giri Ho Vaadi Mein Aur Hansi Tere Guunje If Snow Fell In The Valley, And Your Laughter Rang Out,
Un Mein Lipti Simti Huyi Vaat Kare Dhu'aan Nikle The Wind Would Blow And Bring Forth Smoke:
Garam Garam Ujala Dhuaan Warm, Warm, Bright Smoke,
Naram Naram Ujala Dhuaan Soft, Soft, White Smoke

Just Whatever...

Just whatever....

Sunday, September 21, 2008 at 11:53am
Okay so i woke up this morning and i was like WHAT THE HELL????? pretty random, but i flipped around in my bed for a while, i looked at my wall which is full of flowers and cards and pictures.... Yes some were of boys some of girls... flowers from exes flowers from family and friends cards from past loves and family..... Then i stared and stared..... and i started too think... WHAT THE HELL.... what the hell meaning what is this life????? Are we soooooooooooooooo intoxicated by songs that sing too us that YOUVE BECOME MY ADDICTION??????? its all because of you.... or songs that sing if i cant have you i dont want no body baby...... or kiss me like youll never see me again... are we living out the lyrics to these songs, are we REALLY IN LOVE???? or infatuated or just in love with the IDEA or image of love.....I think maybe we are so clouded by sngs ESPECIALY HINDI!!!!! that tell us that when my hand is in yours the entire world is in my hand!!!!! or my entire life is of belonging too you with out you im breathless.... NOW seriously how many pl out there SERIOUSLY guys are actually BREATHLESS!!!!! are you? then mr or miss breathless how is it that you can wake up and go on in your life? go dancing? drinking.... laugh....... dress up nicely? socialize... and then the best part of it all...... meet someone new? isnt it true that if i cant have you in my life i am lifeless.....Hmmmmmm now whats wrong here? Is it just the song that was breathless...... or was your breath taken away by ONLY the song????? I mean dont get me wrong there were hundreds of times in my life that ive heard songs and thought IT WAS THE END FOR ME!!!!!! Love..... what have we made of it....A JOKE!!!!! a mockery..... an act of adulltry..... weve defamed all the great loves from before our time.... weve given it a name of shame...weve shared it after drinking all of the night away.... weve shared it out of greed...anger... jelousy....weve shared it out of stupidity....competition.... weve shared it after spending a night with friends shaking our butts and meeting eyes and saying hey baby want a drink.... yeah... lets have shooters .... oh im so drunk lets go SHARE LOVE!!!! lol.... wow im so impressed by PYAR love....haa ha haaa..... Love.....I love you ill die for you.... i swear....Oh ummmm i love you ill die for you2 months later.....New boy new girl... I LOVE YOU I SWEAR ILL DIE FOR YOU!!!!!!!!!!! what the hell?????So is it just songs that hype us about love! or have we totaly de famed it destroyed it.... I think we have...... So after i looked at the pictures on my wall... I asked... did this person even love me or love the idea of loving me.... the fact that it wasnt allowed... that fact that our relationship may have reflected a past love story... of what was never allowed but would be FOUGHT FOR!!!!... hmmmmm... would have he really? would he pull out his sword and fight the world for me? would we walk through the deserts with only our love to feed us and quennch our thirst.... would we travel to different villages hiding our relationship and meet lovely ppl that would feed us whiskey too celebrate and then start dancing and singing....hmmmmmm Love or just a song, you tell me......Closing note,I swear im not sure if love is true anymore or ive lived it only through songs....and are trying too bring that fantasy too life.... Because if you look at the acts of love nowdays it seems like a HUGE joke too me....its about money, beauty, fame.... caste.....alcohol.....status.....conveniance....fun.....cheatng ,,,,lying....betrayal....false feelings....I guess a beautiful girl has stolen away my heart with one glance nowadays means i was hammerd at a bar i saw a slutty buzzed girl and i was horny so we hooked up LOL..... wowAnd without your vision i am blind too the entire world means.... i met this guy and i couldnt control myself so i slept with him, i didnt see your image i was blinded too you... but i saw him?????Okay thats it... so WHAT THE HELL.... means WHAT THE HELL....I guess we look at past lovers and say wow...were sooooo lucky too be in this year not the one they were in, because now we have so much freedom in love, So we say were so lucky and they were so unlucky for what they had too go through, but you know what, i think if the past lovers were looking down on us they would say... WOW what is wrong with these ppl, havent we tought them anything about love??? the truth of love the meaning? the actions.... we have sacrificed our lives for the name of love and these NEW AGE ppl cant even sacrifice a second??? we thought WE were unlucky but i think these new ppl are the unlucky ones becasue they never will understand the TRUE meaning of love! and what its made of...... In my heart i believe that weve taken the most imortant thing in this world in our lives and made it the last thing that matters too us... weve replaced it with so many other things that have no meaning in life, only for a moment.... we take being educated being popular rich... pretty.... being like someone else and losing ourselves just too fit in... we take all the other sins of life and put that before love....I honestly bow down to those that kept the value of love greater than anything... may it be the love for family, or friends or religion... I honestly bow down too you, not cutting your hair, for the love of soemthing, not showing your face for the love of soemthing, not eating for a month for the love of something, not eating pork...beef....meat... for the love of something, waking up at 5 or 4 am too do prayers for the love of something, giving up popularity, looks...style for the love of something.....wearing garments for the love of something......volunteering over seas for the love of something! Just love.... anyone thats okay stupid as this may sound KEPT IT REAL......its so hard nowdays too say something to someone and have them believe you...... because love i think doesnt exist anymore... or is very hidden......I truly wish i could go back in time and live in a time when things were more simple...because then the lyrics from a song today would be the words from someone who truly loved me....

What To Do

What to do.......

Monday, March 19, 2007 at 10:25pm
Here is my first note, read it or dont that is a choice u can make , my note is about love, i know those of you whom know me are saying HERE GOES CHELLA,,,,,,,,,, well then here i go.............................My note is that love can make you change your life, when u lay awake and cannot sleep because someone is runnin through out your mind though you say stop he/she just runs through the lights goes down the wrong road then skips through the water falls, and jumps through the clouds, now stop you say but this person is going left right and centre, now stop you say but this person is playing in the fields picking at each flower catching each butter fly, and blowing kisses in the wind, now stop you say but this person begins too sing, a song that speaks only your name, only your eyes it finds only your lips it touches only your heart it seeks, now stop you say but then you realize you were never asleep, so a daydream you have had, are you so much in love? now stop you say and the love that you feel appears in front of you, and as you fall too the ground a hand reaches out and asks you too stop now for i am not only a dream i am also yours here .yesterday.today.tomorrow, always running in the fields of your mind, sitting on the tip of your tongue, and playing the beats in your heart...............Dont ever be without that one person that makes you say Stop............ because when you pass you take only your soul, and only in your soul is what your life was, and will alawys be...............

Gone...

You can read this and think of a past Lover, father Mother sister brother Best friend anyone, what ran through the branches of this tree that seemed too be growing only to be chopped down ...and too be burried under the ground? how it is this life when u think u are living above or ontop but yet you will eventually go below it!



Gone

Sunday, November 4, 2007 at 1:21am
I called you today but there was no one on the other line.....I held out my hand but you werent there to take it......I blew you a kiss but you werent there to send it back....I looked up to find you but there was no one standing thereI fell down to the floor but you never caught meI screamed and yelled at you but you didnt fight backI reached out to touch you but only fealt nothingI cryed a thousand tears and you never caught one......I listend for your laugh but there was silenceI made your favorite meal but your plate sat emptyI ironed your shirt but not a wrinkle was foundI rushed home from work to kiss you goodnight but the bed was emptyI washed the floors but there werent any footprintsI danced to our song but the radio was silentI bought your favorite cologn but there wasnt a fragranceI sat and i waited but you still havent comeI said i was sorry so why wont you come.......I called you today so will you please comeI missed you today i need you to come.......How is this life.......that when you came i didnt stay...when you laughed i never heard it.when you cryed i let your tears fall.....when you held me i moved away......when you called my name out i never noticed.now here i am calling your name and need to hear you say mine......just once....i will always look up and see you standing there.just how you were....and in the wind is your voice with the breeze sways your smell....in the stars your eyes are shining..the rain carrys your tears.....the sun is your smile...the moon is your soul.....with the leaves fall your kisses....and in every tune beats your heart....

I like this and this YOU should too

“The tree can teach you forbearance and tolerance. It offers shade to all, irrespective of age, sex or religion, nationality or status. It helps with fruit and shade even to the foe who lays his axe on its trunk! The dog can teach you a lesson in Faith, Self-less service and the process of Dedication.

”Sri Sathya Sai Baba

Sikh Men are being FRAMED>???? Whats the truth behind these killings?

Sikh gets life term for killing wife in Canada..IM QUESTIONING THIS!!!

Saturday, February 7, 2009 at 7:15pm
These storys are sad No Dought.....but im thinking of te truth of the scenarios???? Ni lives should be taken , in any case.But its been in our news EVERDAy almost, Usualy beggining with SIKH(not even Indo canadian or punjabi BUT SIKH) male MURDERS WIFE!!!!Okay okay...this is where sum of you reading this will get mad.... But ill say it anyways cus i believe in what im about to say...Okay White Guy has a pig farm with 100???? or so DEAD MANGLED UP RAPED TORTURED BODYS.... Man rapes kids...a serial rapist...teacher???? blah blah... you dont hear about it? So now as most of you know, KILLING IS WRONG!!!!its 2009 and ppl change with time, females attitudes are altered or influenced by a modern western society, i agree and you all agree,meaning girls want money power fame, and a certian Lifestyle now... they marry for status, Not a family status, as in a good well mannered respectful...family status, i mean as in Oh whats his last name???? what do they own????? I WANNA LIVE SEPERATELY!!!! and thats the truth!!!!!Be independant!!!! ask for gold lotts of gold!!!!! If you dont buy me that, ill leave you and put your family to shame, so what im sleeping with the neighbour when your driving your truck throughout CANADA all nite!!!! yes yes i say " yes hunny im home, and meanwhile the cousin is sitting in his bed!!! LoLSo we have this wife.... Thats demanding calling all night and all day saying, bring home more money!!!! Bring my uncles and cousins and cousins sisters and brothers and blah blah from india!!!!! When i married you, you had money!!!!! ill take the kids and leave, then they go to womens partys and gossip all nite, but go to the temple and put on a show, IM A GOOD WIFE!!!! then head off to the casino...So please look at both sides of the story, most men would NEVER EVER tell there story, whyd you kill her?????? WHY!!!!Because she was................... Nope its a shame to the family! Save your pride and say cus i couldnt have a son.... Im not buying it, the media loves to throw out a basic situation...THOSE HINDUS ARE KILLING THERE WIVES!!!!! hmmm THOSE SIKHS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its like saying ... ANOTHER CHRISTIAN MURDERS RAPES DECAPITAES ANOTHER CHRISTIAN FEMALE!!!!!Wheres the shame?????????????? Nope a MAN!!!! is arrested after 100 bodys are found on his farm!!!Compared to,AN INDO CANADIAN SIKH PUNJABI MALE!!!!! MURDERS AGAIN...and they always have too say how ALL SURREY IS FILLED OR OVER POPULATED WITH SIKHS!!!! what are you trying too say???? GET OUTT!!!!!!Ive said this over and over... I know MANY AMAZING SIKH PUNJABI MALES!!!! that have done wonders, have taken care of there parents for years and years..... i dont know many other races that KEEP there parents at home? I know many GREAT AMAZING LOVING HUSBANDS that have TERRIBLE wives!!!! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont twist this into im sticking up for anyone that has had there life taken away...NO ONE DESERVES ANYTHING LIKE THAT only God Has the Power To Do Such Thing......All im saying is that a community needs to REALLY EDUCATE the females and just make peace... within eachother.......LOOKA T BOTH PPL not just one!MAY YOUR LOVELY SOULS REST IN PEACE! Sikh gets life term for killing wife in CanadaJune 28th, 2008 - 3:10 pm ICT by IANS - Send to a friend:Vancouver, June 28 (IANS) A Sikh taxi driver here has been sentenced to life for killing his wife after a heated argument nearly two years ago. Jatinder Waraich, 25, had stabbed Navreet 39 times in their Surrey city basement, the provincial British Columbia Supreme Court said while handing down the sentence Friday. He will not be eligible for parole for 10 years.Waraich told the court that he and his wife often argued over money problems. He said Navreet wanted him to stop paying mortgage on his parents’ home and also forge documents to help her family immigrate to Canada.He said that on Oct 29, 2006, his wife threatened to leave for India with their five-month-old son and later file for divorce. In a fit of anger, he said he could recall stabbing her only once before blacking out.However, the autopsy report said that Navreet was stabbed 39 times.Navreet’s father, Dilbag Singh Gill, who is in custody of her two-year-old son, said at the verdict that he wanted to go back to India to raise him.Waraich and Navreet came to Canada in 2003. Like most new immigrants, they also struggled financially and emotionally to come to terms with life in the new society.Their landlady Shalinder and her daughter Tejinder Basran had told the media at the time of the crime that when they went downstairs to calm the couple, they found Navreet stabbed and bleeding profusely.They recalled how the dying woman pleaded with them to save her life as her knife-wielding husband stood by.Navreet was one of the three Indo-Canadian wives who were killed by their husbands in Surrey city in October 2006.